I'm home from college! It's weird being back, only not really. because I really missed home, even though I wouldn't admit it. Being here has kind of made me realize how my best friends aren't easily replaced. Actually, they're not replaceable. I don't even know how they feel, but at school I feel almost lost. there, i said it. okay, sorry I didn't want to go to a smaller school. In fact, I still don't really want to go to a small school; I just miss the support group of friends I had in high school. I really miss them.
Whenever I feel lost, I always plan things out. I sketch out some sort of life plan that I think will help me get through my...floundering.
As for now...well I don't have a good plan. I really want to stay at Mizzou. I like the campus and the dorms. The food is edible and my classes only suck because I'm in the sucky classes. But the other part of me wants to just go to U of I. Room with my friends and just fall back into that pattern of comfortable. Surround myself with my friends that I have known and loved for the last formative years of my life. Spend my weekends with my besties chillin' and watching the game or going out and painting the town red. Heroic late night study parties with pineapple pizza and lots of bubble tea or coffee breaks. Just like high school, only with later bedtimes.
But I guess that's not really what college is about, is it? Or maybe it is, but the POINT of college is to help you find more of those people to spend your days with.
I hope so, because (and since no one reads this), it's getting awfully lonely in Missouri. [sigh]
iLife project update? No go on the Tiger of Love, too much effort. Are doing that "Free Hugs" Campaign. It should be weird. Here is a link to the real one: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4
Life update:
Well this weekend I went home, as I mentioned already. It's my little bro's birthday and homecoming, so it seemed like an excellent time to head home before the holidays.
I love it here. And I love my car and the fam and my dog. [sigh]
content :)
'night!
Sameth
Spicy Sam. ^_^
ReplyDeleteI know it sucks, but this year's going to help you grow in soo many ways.
Keep the faith. Call if you want someone to talk to!