waste of time!

wow i hate these. but im so narcissitic that i just HAVE to repost them.

STEP ONE:
Spell your name with songs.
Small Town Girl
All you need is love
Moment like this

STEP TWO:
– Name: Samantha
– Birth date:July 19, 1991
– Nickname: sam, sameth, samala
– Eye Color: brown.
– Hair Color: Brown.
– Zodiac Sign: cancer

STEP THREE:
–The shoes you wore today: black flats
– Your weaknesses: food. the good kind.
– Your fear(s): spiders, flying in airplanes, driving on the high way through any sort of traffic, death, confrontation. interviewing people and heights
– Your perfect pizza: pepperoni and pineapple.
– Goal you’d like to achieve: live a long and happy life. that's not too much to ask for, jeez.

STEP FOUR:
– Your best physical feature: um my hair?
– Your bedtime? Um, usually like midnight or one.
– Most missed memory? high school!

STEP FIVE:
This Or That…
– Pepsi or Coke? DIET COKE. love it.
– McDonald’s or Burger King: um McDonalds
– Adidas or Nike: who cares?.
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: ew gross.
– Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate psh duh.
– Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino.yum.

STEP SIX:
Do You…
– Smoke: Nope.. never have never will.
– Curse: chyeah. like a sailor..
– Sing: everyday. all day long.
– Dance: everyday. almost all day long..
– Take a shower everyday:yes. always. without faill.
– Have a crush: hmm i'm deciding.
– Do you think you’ve been in love?: hope not.
– Want to go to college: no. i want to go back to high school where i was a boss. for sure.
– Like(d) high school: LOVEd high school. go hawks!
– Want to get married: yep! that's why I went to college, to get my MRS degree ;) just kidding. sort of.
– Get motion sickness: only when I try to read in cars/buses..which means my trips back to IL are really unproductive.
– Think you’re attractive: um on good days. but not usually.
– Think you’re a health freak: absolutely not.
– Get along with your parents: yep. most times.

STEP SEVEN:
In the past month…
– Gone to the mall: indeed.
– Eaten an entire box of Oreos: um no..
– Eaten Sushi: Yep!
– Been on stage: hm past month? No i guess not. how very sad!
– Gone skating: no sir.
– Made homemade cookies: Nope..but i ATE homemade cookies. and they were tasty.
– Gone Skinny dipping: haha no.
– Stolen anything: nope! i am a good kid..

STEP EIGHT:
Ever…
– Played a game that required removal of clothing: haha no.
– If so, was it mixed company: n/a.
- Flashed anyone: psh no.
– Been beaten up: hahahaha..no never
– Shoplifted: as if.

STEP NINE:
– Age you hope to be married: I hope to have some prospect of getting married by the time i'm like 28. I don't HAVE to be married by that point though.
– Numbers of Children: um like one. max.
– Describe your Dream Wedding: somewhere good! like, England.
– What country would you most like to visit?: England!

STEP TEN:
In the preferred sex..
– Best eye color?: whatevez.
– Best hair color?: whateverr.
– Short hair or long hair?:Long, but not too long.
– Height: taller than me. i mean, if you're a guy and shorter than 5'3" though, you have issues.

STEP ELEVEN:
– Number of people I could trust with my life: quite a few.
– Number of CDs that I own: 1858 songs on itunes?
– Number of tattoos: zip.
– Number of piercings: Zero


Personal Quiz
Who were you with yesterday? Lukas and Nazie and Adam.
What woke you up this morning? Nazie.
Where are you? my dorm room
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? hmm no. i have a midterm. that i should be studying for right now.
Do you like anybody? I have no idea WHAT to think anymore.

THE PAST
Ever thrown up in public? haha once when i was like 10. i choked on some pizza and gag reflex...
Passed out because of alcohol? heh no.
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW?: that i have a headache and should be studying.

THE FUTURE
What kind of home would you like? a good one! haha i don't know. lately I've been dreaming of going home to the good old state of illinois.
What do you want to be when you grow up? I don't know anymore...I think I want to teach journalism and english. i think.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? at home in slumburg. working for D211 or in some podunk town in kansas reportering.

IN GENERAL
Do you like candy necklaces? sure
When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? pretty much every day i run into an object that would be easily avoided by a coordinated person..
Do you listen to music every day? of COURSE. its like, the best part of my day.
Do you still go trick or treating? i did until this year. i can't justify it anymore!
What was the last thing you ate? um dinner
Are you a fast typer? relatively.
Whats your favorite type of soda? DIET COKE.
Have you ever moved? Only to get to college
Have you ever won an award? yeah. like a lot.
Are you listening to music right now? i would be, but my roomie thinks i'm studying lol.
How long ’till your birthday? 9 monthss.
When were you the saddest in your whole life? uhm...7th grade
What time is it? 8:38
Do you use ebay to buy or sell? no
Who makes you mad? annoying people.
Have you ever heard a song written about you? hahah depends on what you consider a song..cause angela and i had a song for almost everything.
Something you want to happen in 2010? awesomeness
Honestly, do you miss 2008? um yeah..

HONESTY SECTION
1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? p¡nk :P
2. Honestly, whats on your mind? um trying to figure out life. no big.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? not going to sociology.awesome.
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? um yeah. it's called ditching sociology.
8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? angela!
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? um yeah kind of..
10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? when people are unaware of how to pronounce illinois. or cannot make their verbs agree with the subject.
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? yes. pretty much everyday.
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? nooo.
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? um, i'm trying to decide.
14. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? um no. not a big secret.
15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? well yeah.
17. Honestly, are you in denial? uh no? about what?
18. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? haha no..
19. Honestly, do you like anyone? gah I can't figure it out..
20. Honestly, does anyone like you? i don't know that either. useless.

ANGER SECTION

1. What do you do when you’re mad? um sing.
2. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? blew up at someone.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? no. actually i don't think i've ever made anyone cry.
4. Do you swear when you’re mad? haha yeah. and when i'm not mad. i'm a horrible person.

CRYING SECTION
1.When was the last time you actually cried? um a couple days ago..
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? probably during college application time..
3. Do certain songs make you cry? Um, i wouldn't say that the song itself makes me cry.
4. What usually makes you cry? um life.

HAPPY SECTION
1. Are you usually a happy person? yep.
2. What makes you the happiest? Friends:) oh and food.
4. Do you believe in yourself? most days..
5. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy? haha doesnt usually happen but yeah :P

18 Oct 2009 6:32 PM "the pursuit of happiness"

Everyday in The Ancient World, my humanities course, our professor asks us questions. "What is Justice? Was that Just? What about Ethics? What is the difference between Ethics and Morals?" and so on. Today, Joe Green* asked us "Who in this room is HAPPY?"

Naturally, I raised my hand. It was instinctive. I raised my hand without even thinking about it.

Why did I do that? I spend so much time complaining, or thinking about things that bother me that it's almost all consuming. This morning I showered and my thoughts revolved around how much I dislike the word "blogosphere." And how much I dislike words the national media comes up with in the first place actually. (Generation O, prequel, islamophobia, islamic terrorism, etc.) Point being, I didn't realize I consider myself to be a happy person.

But I guess I do.

weird.


*who also has a lisp, which can be humorous at times, not going to lie

13 October 2009 11:29 PM "wait. what if..."

So for some reason, upon entering college I though that this would be a piece of cake. After taking awhile to figure things out, I'd emerge on top of the game, HEHS style.
Weird how things NEVER seem to work as I plan them.

But it's okay I guess. The problem I have now is that I have to decide. What am I going to do with my life now? I am here at this awesome school for journalism; it only makes sense to continue doing it. But what if I do and I realize that it's...well kind of not what I love? What if I love the idea of being in the newsroom not for the news, but for the room? I like the idea of a close-knit community working together for the greater good, but sans the sticky hairspray and backstabbing?

What if I wanted to be a meaningful journalist to help the world become a better place but really all I want to do is help others become better to make the world better?

and isn't that....teaching?

What if, theoretically, I just decide to become a teacher? Then what am I doing here at Mizzou? I mean, really. If I stay here and get a journalism degree then that would totally defeat the purpose of moving to Missouri! But if I stay and then get to Broadcasting 2 and totally hate my life because I don't "love what I'm doing " enough, then won't that defeat the purpose of college?!

But if I leave, then I started something for nothing. I failed again at something new. Everyone probably struggles a little bit at first right? I mean, at Hoffman, I didn't have that many friends until later on, even though they were all in English with me every day. It took time to figure out what I was doing and where I was going, exactly. I just had a vague idea to look forward to.

Maybe college is like that too. I have to take my time and figure things out.

Until that time, I guess my new life plan can include the best of both worlds:
Finish school here at Mizzou with a degree in English and Journalism and a minor in Spanish Language. Return to el norte and try to find a job somewhere in IL. (NOT Kansas or wherever everyone always says journalists start out). Or if I get to that point where I think I done trying to be a reporter, I can start doing what I think I might really be meant to do: teach others to be reporters and better writers.

<3 sameth

10 October 2009 10:05 PM "man i love college"

Okay, so there is this song called "I love college." It talks all about how we're supposed to, in college, drink all the time, party it up, etc etc, college cliche after college cliche.

...So why am I not doing that? Why is it Saturday night and I'm watching the Office? WELL, it's the episode of Jim and Pam's wedding, so I'm pretty sure that's excusable. But really. Am I not doing college right?

I think part of my problem is that I'm holding on to the past. I talk to more than one friend from Illinois each day. Possibly over the course of the day. When I'm with the few friends I have on campus, I'm telling stories about "back home" or comparing Missouri to home or high experiences to here...

Perhaps it's time for me to start building some bridges.

2 October 09 1:37 PM "el gripe del cerdo"

Lets just discuss how I WOULD BE THE ONE TO GET THE SWINE.

That seriously would happen.

Now I have to waste time on the internet rather than actually do my work. But whatever.

Okay. Nothing more to say. And no one reads this anyways lol.

Sam