Nov 10 11:28 PM "what am I DOING?"

If I leave.
If I leave, there's no coming back.
If I leave, I'm done with journalism.
If I leave, all the dreams I had of changing the world with meaningful news are gone.

Did I ever really have that dream?
Did I ever really want that? Or was I just trying justify wanting to be a journalist.

If I become a teacher, will I be satisfied?
If I become a teacher, will I be settling for something I don't want?

no.

I think I'm done here.

If I leave, I think it's for the best.

...I think...